Love that will not betray you, dismay or enslave you.

"It will set you free. Be more like the man you were meant to be."

I think that I am learning more about what true love is. A good and very wise friend said this to me a couple weeks ago after I remarked on my love life, and even though it was kind of in passing, I have been thinking about it ever since. She said,

“You’ve only had a like life. You don’t get a love life until you’re married.”

As I think about it more and more I can really appreciate the truth, beauty and wisdom in it. I have often felt that I was not designed to play the dating game, or this game of like that a lot of people seem to get consumed in. I feel too much, I’m loyal almost to a fault and I am all too ready to hand over my heart... and my body, soul & mind. Therefore, I get hurt easily and I end up investing a lot in people who are not worth it. While I think everyone deserves having love invested in them, despite who they are or what they've done, I think I've learned that in a romantic relationship there can come a point where it is no longer worth investing your love in that person. Romantic love is on plateau of its own. 

I often wish there was a way to fast-track to the husband part and skip the playing of the field and the game of like part. I don’t know that this is possible but I feel like there has got to be a better way. I will keep thinking and writing about it.

I’m also hoping  to find love that doesn’t betray, dismay or enslave me. Because in my experience that kind of love does not set you free. It becomes a prison and strangely, a prison that you are not at all willing to even try and escape from. 

There must be a middle ground. A way to find love and not play a game. A way to invest in someone and love them but understand that my love life does not start until I am married. I suppose this will be something new to think about.

I suppose this post is more about generating thoughts rather than making a point or statement. I think it can blossom into something more and when it does I'll be sure to share. I hope everyone is having a good January and trudging through winter, sloooowly but surely. Listen & love...

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